Hi!
I'm so sorry for all you go through. My younger brother has autism, and I have a physical disability myself, so we aren't completely the same but being very empathetic I feel like I can understand some parts of where you're coming from.
As far as understanding your hopes for love and acceptance, I 100% feel and understand because I go through the same things. My goal in life is to be loved and liked by everybody and I want nothing more than to feel love (relationship wise and casual) in return. However because of my disability and how I view myself, such as body dysmorphia and whatnot, it makes it hard. Please know that, no matter how different we are, or anyone else here on this forum or earth, there are people who go through the same things you are, and feel the same pain you do, and you are not alone. You are not weird and different, we all go through these things and that's okay.
as far as your parents, they seem as though they really care about you, and given your situation they are just very protective of you because love and relationships can be a very scary and dangerous things emotionally, while it is amazing. Your parents do trust you and love you, they just are reluctant to let you venture down the road of relationships when it seems you might be a bit lost or emotionally unstable?
I myself like to listen much more then talk, my advice would be to keep trying, you will find people who love you, as a friend or more.
if you're insecure that you over share too much, maybe evaluate the things you say and try to be a little more catious. There's nothing wrong with sharing about you're life! But you're right in that it can be off outing to some people.
you sound like a great person, everyone had struggles, and things do get better if you work for them and if you try. The things you want, like love, will come you way, just be careful and make sure that the circumstances are right.
also, talking to a therapist is great and always helps me feel better, I would definitely recommend it. Keep your head up ❤️